Today Daisy had a CT scan, which searches her body for any other spots or masses. Praise God it came up clear! She has scarred pretty significantly though where her kidney used to be, but the doc says it’s shrinking, so that’s good. Her ANC is the lowest its ever been today, (ANC is white blood cells and basically how strong her ability to fight off infection is) and needs to come up before her next dose of chemo next week. so, we could use prayer for that. By the way, she will be receiving Chemo through May.

Another happy, her hemoglobin came up again!!!! Thank you so much for praying!!!!!

Also, her hair is swiftly coming out. The last week she’s lost more hair than ever. For me, it’s an emotional thing. I’m not sure why, but it hits me in a tender spot when i see hundreds of hairs on my daughter’s pillow in the morning. It’s expected for cancer treatment, but i think its such a visual reminder of the radical-ness of the disease. She seems to be taking the fact of baldness pretty well, but this morning she definitely didn’t enjoy the sight of the hair everywhere. Sigh…. I guess we girls are just emo! (but still pray for adjustment!)

Britt and I were talking a few nights ago, taking stock of our lives. We realize that for much of our marriage, our lives have been neat and pretty. Beautiful town, amazing friends, loving families, thriving church. We acknowledge that we are blessed in more ways than we thought possible. This year has been a whopper, and now are lives are no longer as pretty, but there is a deep beauty forming through it all. I prefer the beauty that comes through the painful polishing of tough times.

I want all you Daisy blog readers and prayers to know that we have never felt so carried through a hard time like this before. I feel like I can rest, knowing that there are so many petitioning on our behalf night and day. You are all so appreciated.

Daisy moment: Daisy was visiting a dear friend of hers and they were painting and being artistic. Daisy tells her buddy’s mom that she would like to paint a forest. Buddy’s mom was expecting squirrels, happy little forest creatures. You know, little girls love things like winged ponies, bunnies, etc. But we know our fireball has a little more hutzpah than that…. Daisy ends up painting a giant vicious looking grizzly bear and a hunter hiding behind some bushes holding a rifle! ah, my sweet little girl….